One Year

Walking down this painful road is familiar.
I've been down here a thousand times,
Trying to find myself.
But I'm taking my time, and watching my steps,
Because I will never lose you,
But my worst fear is that I already have.
My eyes sting with tears
As I think of that.
Because even if in one year
I still haven't found you,
I would never forget
I would never give up on you.
It would hurt too much.
I tripped over every one of you words,
And I'm afraid that will happen again.
But I'm changing myself for the day
I meet you again.
I never wanted to say goodbye,
My veins bursted with pain the day you left.
There was so much I wanted to say,
But I couldn't stand to look at you walking away.
I died a little when you did.
So I'm on this road again,
Trying to find you and myself.
Back in my mind, I know,
That if I keep walking,
Keep searching, keep hoping,
That I will see you again.
You are in my prayers, every night, always.
I believe, that in time,
I will reach the end of this road,
And you will be there.
You'll come back into my life, someday.
I live for that day.