I wish I was too dead to care,
That your razor edged words were useless.
I wish that I was too dead to cry,
Cry these crimson tears over how worthless I am to you.
I wish I was not so weak,
Perhaps then you would hear me scream,
Above your cruel laughter,
That hurts just as much as silence.
I've always been fragile,
A candle flickering in your wind,
I've always smiled away the pain,
The pain you felt I deserved to feel.
I've always hidden away my pain,
And this is why you cause me more.
I've always been a shadow among angels,
The dark no one wants to fall into.
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to exist,
You don't need to apologise,
Words cannot erase scars; only create them.
You don't need to stab me,
For my heart to bleed,
You don't need to push me,
To make me fall even further.
I can't continue this way,
Because I may be dead,
But I'm not dead enough for you,
For you to stop murdering me.
I can't even let go,
Not until you've bled me dry,
So kill me quickly,
I want to rest in darkness, not exist in it.
