To pain...

The pain increases
as you pull the metal
away from the raw skin

you're heart beat races
as you turn away
from the leaking blood

you shouldn't have done it
you knew it
and still know it now

they'll ask questions
you'll lie repeatedly
knowing no one can know

but you know
you'll live with it
not just the pain

the quilt of letting
one more person down
losing one more friend for the pain

but what's one less friend
you need the pain
you live for the pain

so yet one more time
the metal rips against
the already broken skin

to make one more
repeated cut of lies
to lose yet another friend

to pain