I have had enough

Here comes all the pain,
The anger and the grief,
iv gone back to the times,
of lies and disbelief.

i wish it would just end,
My feelings my thoughts my life,
But iv done so very well,
For putting down the knife.

Now i really fear,
That it will start over again,
The tears the blood the scars,
Nothing at all will change.

I wish there was some one out there,
Some one who could help me,
Someone who could show me,
That I'm only blind because i choose to be.

Please just go away,
Don't let the fear build up,
When will you finally see?
That i have had enough!