I kissed her yesterday and I was thinking if I was still in love with her .I questioned myself if I still wanted 2 be with her.
For one second I didnt want 2 be because we fight more than love each other and I wanted us 2 be better when we got back 2gether I asked myself if I loved her or was I in love..
At first I took a look back at all the times we spent 2gether and in the beginning I was in love and now as she started pushing me away by holding up this thick wall I began 2 just love her.
In my heart I know I just love her and Im heart broken because Im no longer in love with her but I still want 2 be with her.
Her biggest fear is losing me
Her biggest fear is me leaving
She cried an ocean last night because I said I didnt want 2 be with her anymore.
Deep down inside I took her back because I didnâ??t want 2 hurt her, but I know we need some time away.
I want 2 be in love with her again but if I cant leave her 2 know than I will never know. Ive got 2 let her go because I love her and when I realize that Iâ??m in love again I want it 2 mean so much more than before I want us 2 grow.
I cried last night because I questioned if I wanted 2 stay or leave
And when she left me 2 go home last night I decided 2 leave I took her back because she cried do I still want 2 be? Dame do I at this moment? I keep asking myself if I even love her anymore. I keep asking myself if I even want 2 be anymore.
We use 2 get along just fine now all we do is fight as I spoke 2 a close friend of mine jasmine who as well is a lesbian and is more experienced than me as I told her how I felt about loving her and why I felt like leaving I yelled out Im in love with her and I dont want 2 leave her- jasmine just laughed at me & said so you know what 2 do & the funny thing is I didnâ??t have 2 say a word. So I guess I thought I was losing her 2 her co-workers but I wasnt.
