I allowed myself to let go of my burdens one night.
I let go of the secret
Let you feel my skin against yours,
let you do what you wanted,
looked you in the eyes and saw my reflection,
expressed a need for more,
you tried to give me all you could
seeing my insatiable desire
you saw me vulnerable, lustful, beautiful and naked.
A treasure hunt,
all about the hidden gold
we were looking two different places,
you tried to find it in my thoughts,
I tried to find it in my lust,
in my actions conjured by you.
I didn`t care about you, - was just looking for the gold.
The consequence of not finding the gold was feeling a screaming emptiness inside.
A feeling of being the last person on earth to understand my actions.
No it wasn`t supposed to be you.
I will search until I die.
I will search until my heart is filled with the good stuff- filled and heavy as led, and light as a feather.
I want to jump on a water bed without it breaking.
That`s what i`m looking for. That feeling.
