I love you?

You dont understand
how You make me feel
falling asleep in Your lap
didnt even seem real

i love that feeling
when You hold me in Your arms
it seems like life is good
and no one can do me any harm

I loved waking up
with You rubbing my back
but You dont love me
and that is a fact

i know i cant have You
this is for sure
but everytime You touch me
i just want more

i might be better off
leaving You for good
maybe it would better both our lives
maybe i should

but i love you so much
i dont think i could make it
my life would come to an end
with a slit of my wrist

i would do it for You
if You would be glad
but i would hold on tighter
if it would make You sad

i hate how i hinge my life
on the way You feel one day
i want to be independent
to find my own way

but i cant get my mind off You
You stay there all the time
i think of You so often
wishing You were mine

but i need to realize
You dont love me like i love you
i need to let go
while im still strong enough to