My secret

There's something I've been wanting to tell you but never could
I'm afraid to love you
Not because I don't and not because of you
But because of me.
I have this big wall built to block the pain
The only bad thing is it won't let anything in
I want to love you I truly do but there's something inside telling me not to
'What if he hurts you what if he leaves" there are so many things you just don't see
You don't get it and you won't understand
But remember I love you until the end!