I see it in me

I lie awake on the dark cold night thinking about every time you've hurt me or hit me.In some way you've failed to help me you've shown me that there's no happiness in the world you've only shown me anger and hatred with out careness; nor happiness its always abusive and it's all because of what you have shown me that i start to realize i see it in myself. i see anger hatred and disgust. i feel disappointed in myself every time someone Say's something about me.It makes me angry i feel like freaking out and then start crying because i see myself exactly the same way you are. It scares me . I don't want to turn out like you don't have any happiness in your life only pain and angry