We are best friends you and I

We are best friends you and i
I swear without you I think i would die
Once we tried to be more than just friends
But for reasons unknown to me it came to an end
I could not speak to you for quite a while
The thoughts I had of you were quite vile
But we are best friends you and i
And from that I could not hide
You hurt me so much rejecting me,
But I knew i had to let you be free
We are best friends you and I
I smile to your face but when alone I cry
I love you with all my heart
But I will not let my feelings drive us apart
We are best friends you and I
To keep you in my life I will lie
You want me to meet your new girl
The thought of meeting my replacement makes my head swirl
We are best friends though you and i
So I will do it even if it makes me want to die
She is everything I am not pretty, bubbly, and smiles alot
I hate her so much for all she has got
Sad thing is I do not know her at all
I can only hope she goes away this fall
You have changed my life in so many ways
You are on my mind every night and day
We are best friends you and i
Even now as I start to cry
You condemn me for some of the things I do
But you do not realize I do them because of you
I get drunk and get silly and dumb
But really all I want is to be numb
I ran into the arms of a couple of men
But it was with you I was wishing i had been
We are best friends you and I
And for that reason I will continue to lie
When you ask me how things have been
I will just look at you and grin
I will pretend I do not look back
That you are not the cause of my anxiety attacks
You make me so happy, you make me so sad
Was being with me really that bad?
We are best friends you and I
When I am with you I feel so high
We know each other inside and out
When you are with her all I can do is pout
You best friend thinks your brain has a glitch
And we both think Z is a _itch
But that I will never say to you
Because our friendship would then be through
I will hide my tears and be the M you want me to be
The heartache you caused I will not let you see
We are best friends you and I
My real self from you I did not hide
You are my Sunny D
You brought light into my darkness so I could see
What it was like for a short time to be treated good
But I guess I misunderstood
I was happy in my darkness do you not see?
Being treated good is not in the cards for me
We are best friends you and I
All I can do is shake my head and sigh
If you had no intention of being with me
Why on earth did you show me how good it could be?
I still hurt and I still do not understand
But I will always be here, loving you with all that I am
I only ask one favor from you, and I want you to be true
Do not judge me for what I do
I am trying to get over you the best I can
To find someone to be my man
I know they will never be what you are to me
For I cannot let them be
You broke through the walls around my heart and soul
It is only you who makes me feel whole
Though I love you I will lie
Because we are best friends you and I
And in this way you will always be mine.