I was warned to stop cutting as it wouldn't solve anything. he made me promise to stop or else the consequences would be that he would do exactly the same thing as me except he'd do it ten times worse
i made my promise...
but then stupidly i went and broke it.
i told him what i did...
then i begged and pleaded for him not to do anything like i had done
he said that he would let it slide this once.
but now i am in trouble. i cannot control the thoughts. i regret ever breaking my promise in the first place, as now i am in pain, and the thought that my promise is now a lie hurts me more.
i want to do it... but i do not want others to hurt because of me. i also do not want to do it because it was painful.
as much as it hurts its the only thing that i can feel is doing anything whether good or bad i do not know
