Alone, Unknown

I am alone
I am the unknown
You can't see into my eyes
You can't understand why

I won't let you in
I won't show my sin
I am what you made me to be
All I long for is to be free

Sitting here all alone
Wondering why I make myself unknown
I'll hurt you if I tell
The disastrous way I fell

Make amends? To late for that
These little hopes pushed flat
Time and time again, I wonder where I'm going
Then I remember the hope of blood flowing

All alone
Hoping to stay unknown
I won't tell a soul my true
Because, Willow, I know it's hurting you

Hidding away, unknown to light
I fall from life, I fall from sight
Troubles plagueing, words don't cut it
All in my head, how can these problems fit?

All alone, I am alone
Sitting here unknown, striving to be unknown
Hurting you with words, I stop the flow
And now my little death wish, you now know

Alone, just have to be alone
I wish for more, to remain unknown
Unknown, lost in what I cannot show
I'm sorry you cannot know

Willow, I truly am alone
I'm sorry that I shall live unknown
I want so much to make me smile
But I'm sorry Willow, I can't go that extra mile

I don't want to show you me
Because then I feel a little too free
I hide behind laughs and concerned faces
But I only do it to get you into happy graces

I make so many mistakes that you do not see
And I make the mistake of wanting to be happy
But Willow, I can't let you see what I am
Because Willow, you know it's all a sham

I just am alone
I sit here, wanting to be unknown
Can't I have thoughts of suicide?
Or don't you believe the times I cried?

I trust you to see
All the times I truly tried to be me
But I'm sorry Willow, I can't go back
I've made myself unknown to the night black

I am alone
I am unknown
And now you see
I'm hiding me

~ For Willow, I hope you understand what I'm trying to say ~