And the Rain Kept Me Company

Sobbing miserably in the cold confines of my room
on the rough carpet, i roll over in agony
with absence to hold me
and no one to keep me company

mascara dripping down my face
i hobble up the stairs
i walk to the front door
and slip out into the rainstorm

i wander down the road
rain lightly dripping onto my body
with my now wet sweatpants and t-shirt clinging to my body
and no one to keep me company

i stop dead in my tracks
a few hundred yards down the street
i lower to the ground
as tears trickle down my cheeks

i curl up and hold myself
and i slowly shut my eyes
all my energy and worries gradually pour out of me
i lay there in the street, not wanting to say goodbye

minutes pass and i drift into bliss
as the rain comes down harder from the sky
and to think that just before this
i wanted so badly to die

my sadness no longer engulping me
i can go on, at least for a while longer
and when i think of my life and love
i feel so much stronger

i lied there in silence, away from everything
i curled up in the street and escaped reality
i lied on road as the storm covered me like a blanket
and the rain kept me company