All i wanted....

Red blood,fresh tears, gritting my teeth as my razor blade peels.Whimpering slightly as i remember you leaving me,remembering that makes me cut deeply. Silent Prays have not been answered or heard. If god was real,i wouldn't be here alone.But here I am now an angel with broken bloody wings,weeping in the darkness for him to come back and be with me, His touch,his love i want him to be mine i wanted us to be together for the rest of our lives. But he left me alone and I've prayed for him to come back but god hasn't answered so i guess he doesn't give a crap.Back to this i look at my wrist my blood giving it a dark pink tint. Breathing slows,heartbeat starts to skip falling back i sit. Eyes glazed with tears,blood stains on my arm looking up i pray aloud-"Father above what have i done?What did i do to lose his love?!What did i so so wrong?You haven't helped you've only ignored.Now I'm gone...I'm on the way to your so called kingdom-".My breathing halts on a shuddery breath,eyelids close to forever rest.All i wanted was him to come back,for him to love me the way i still love him. I just wanted to be his only love again...and yet in the end..its his love that drove me to my death.