Home Isn't Home

I see the city lights shining from high above
lighting up this place
the place that I once loved.

Faces passing by me
on the once familiar street
the headlights rushing by
as my feet tap the hard concrete.

How could I have been so wrong
about where my heart lies?
Maybe its just been too long
since the city met my eyes.

How could I have waited
thinking nothing would change
now that my mind has been sated
why does my heart feel so strange?

Staring down these four walls
is not as easy as it seems,
my heart longs and it rages
to see what its once seen.

For two years it's been
longing to race the familiar turf
home will never be the same for me
maybe it is I who has changed so much.

A home I've always needed
seemed so close to me
but now that I've seen it
this home will never be.

Wandering down the many corners of my mind
I wonder what the future holds for me
and how much I'll leave behind.

Life has not been fair
this I can admit
but can't it just be once
go as I see fit?

This land is close to me
but further than it seems
for foreign soil marks this place
home it will never again be.