Please tell my why you keep doing this you made it very clear that day that you didn't want me anymore and in that instant slowly but surely i began to let you go but you just wont let me go and i don't understand why. every time i start to forget and i begin to be happy its like you just cant have it because if its not with you that I'm happy its just not acceptable i don't know why you wont just forget it why cant you forget there ever was an us? it wasn't meant for us to be together we're just not right for each other and a few months ago i would've never admitted that even though i knew we wouldn't last the whole time but now I'm not afraid to say it love wasn't meant for us to be in together and its sad but its the truth we were just mistakes in each others lives just mistakes we had to learn from but you just don't seem to understand my heart isn't beating for you anymore and even though i really do think i was in love with you and my feelings for you will never completely go away you just have to know that we cant be together and to try would just be trying to fool ourselves I'm sorry but I'm just not willing to make the same dumb mistake twice i just cant do it and i don't want you to either because i still care about you and we would just be holding each other back. i don't want to play this game anymore don't try to make me say i still love you and please don't tell me how you feel about me because you're just hurting yourself cause no matter what i feel about you never again will you know how i feel for you I'll deny it till the end that i have any kind of feelings and by now i thought you would've figured that out i thought it was clear that we just cant be and nothing can change that nothing can make our past go away and thats what makes it so painful cause if things would've happened differently maybe we could still be together maybe i would still be your girl and you might've still been the most important person to me but thats just not the way things went and i think you have to accept that cause i already have and to be honest i thought you would've been over me a long time ago but i guess i was wrong and maybe if you would've realized what you had while you had me you wouldn't have ended it but for that there's no one but you to blame it was your choice and i tried to change your mind but it didn't work and you know what as much as you hurt me I'm glad you did because if you hadn't i would still be with you and i wouldn't have a chance with the guy i really want and i wouldn't know what else was out there for me so for that i thank you but i just want you to do the same i want you to find some one that you could love forever or at least some one to make you forget about me but just romantically cause truthfully i do want us to be friends and even though i know it would hurt me i want you to tell me about the girl you're with and i want you to tell me how much you love her and how you want to marry her and in return I'll do the same. i just don't want to be scared to talk about the boy i like cause you might be around i want to be able to tell you and i want you to be happy for me and i want to be happy for you but not just yet i don't think I'm ready for that yet and i know you're not but in time i think we both will be and until then i just want you to forget i exist please just forget cause if you don't i cant see us ever being friends again so just begin your search for Mrs. Right and just remember that shes not me and you're not my Mr. Right and with that in mind know that Ive already begun my search and i already have someone in mind
