Just sitting here,
Wishing to be somewhere.
A place I can't feel hurt,
Where I can't fall face first into the dirt.
I'm sick of falling at your feet,
I've done it since the first day we did meet.
Since the first day,
I never had any words to say.
Never knowing what these feelings were,
Not knowing if they were pure.
I get weak in the knees,
Remembering those days we spent under that old oak tree.
You were all I ever needed at that moment,
But you weren't ready for a commitment.
I thought I was perfectly fine before you walked into my life,
Then suddenly after you I find myself with the knife.
You seemed to enjoy bringing me that never ending pain,
Like I was the perfect shame.
You loved me,
Then let me be.
When it was just me and you,
It felt so true.
But when around other, there was us,
You told everyone I just had a stupid little crush.
Those words repeat in my head,
'I didn't want her to wish she were dead,
If she wasn't with me,
So I just want to show her its not meant to be.'
The one thing that will never make sense,
Is why boys put up a fence.
The let you see whats one the other side,
Give you a little but not enough to hurt their pride.
Boys don't put up walls,
Cause theirs aren't strong always in the end they do fall.
They put that fence in the ground,
So you can see the other side, and hear the sounds.
Only if your good enough,
And have the certain stuff.
You can climb the fence,
And tare down his defense.
So you thought you were perfectly fine before he walked into your life,
Then suddenly you find yourself with that knife.
You finally realized he seemed to enjoy bringing you that never ending pain,
Like you were the perfect shame.
