He Was My Boyfriend, It Was His Motorbike

No matter how hard I try
And no matter what I do
I don’t think I could ever
Stop caring about you

You brought a light into my life
You gave me the hope I have today
You made me believe the sun does shine
You knew exactly how to make me smile

When I’m with you i can see the colors
I can see bright pink and purple flowers
When I’m not with you my world turns grey
only the dim lights keep me awake

I had lost myself for a couple of years
Fighting to find out who I really was
CouldnCoulderstand why I was the way I was
Had no idea on what to do next

Than you just appeared, almost like a miracle
When I was with you I was who I wanted to be
I held nothing back with you I could do anything
Because I trusted you in every way, boy I’m going to miss you

You never judged me once
And you had not a bad word against me
Just seeing you made me smile when nothing else could
So many good memories, in so little time

I don’t know what it is about you
But you made me understand
How it feels to have a true friend
I’ve never had that before
You were always there to help me
And I don’t know how I could ever thank you
You picked me up when I fell down
You talked me through, you kept me steady

None of my other friends did that
Ive never had someone care about me
I spend my whole life helping others
And no one ever tried helping me

I thought it was because I’m a lost cause
I have too many problems to fix
So I started dwelling on that
Which made me feel heaps worse

And than you managed to help
Like instantly I had no problems
every time I saw your smile
I knew theres more in life than death

After Shaun had raped me
I didn’t know where to turn
I could no longer trust a guy
I could no longer like myself

Depression took over me
Scarring up my wrists
And making my eyes cry crimson
I didn’t think I was ever
Going to see the light again

You changed my entire world
You new how to cheer me up
You would always listen to my problems
And try and help at every cost

And than you did it too,
The only guy that I could trust
Since the rape was you
And now your gone

Gone forever not just for now
I can’t even txt you to say hello
Gtext for good, your not coming back
I knew that motorbike was trouble

So because you decided to get a motorbike
I’m now crying at night again
I can no longer see the colours
I can no longer colors light

You were my best friend
And now your gone for good
You better be smiling down on me
Cheers buddy I’ll always love you

© Lucy Green

**I will never forget those good old days Luke, I Promise, I’m always yours!!!**