Nirvana

As my dreams slowly fade
into the black hole once known
as my soul...
I sit here with my shadows,
experiencing the thrill
of my delighted depression.

Time ticks by laughing
in my face...
Take me away
Take me somewhere where
no one knows my face,
my past,
or me.

I need something exhilarating.
Something
with spunk
and jazz.

Despair overwhelms
me and insanity
overpowers me.

My mind is lost
in the rejected confusion,
taking it's toll on
my life...

I can't breathe.
My lungs
have collapsed.

My eyes are bulging
out of my skull
as the life I once had,
slowly drifts away...

I HATE HURTING.

Making my chest
pound with pain,
broken hearts never heal...
I join together in equal union
with the agonizing feelings
I possess.

My smile is gone,
and the love I once had
has slowly evanesced
into my darkness.

I fear I face eternal emptiness,
as I burn and fade into
complete nothingness.

My decayed heart sings
sad and broken songs,
explaining it's very own pain...

I'm lost in this illusion.
The fraction of
my own imagination,
wishing to be in Never Land...

No healing of my
sore, open wounds.
Nothing else can do...

This is my...
NIRVANA.

**I wrote this when I was in pain.**