Now you understand

I died today
you were the last person i saw
i didnt think you carred
i didnt know until you craddled my limp
body in your arms

at that point
watching the tears leak down your cheeks
i knew i had misread you
i thought you didnt care

there was blood pouring from my throat
a knife lay on the floor
you look so broken, full of pain
as you punch at the door

i couldnt stand the pain
i couldnt cope anymore
now as you see my limp lifeless body
you understand how i felt

i cried out to you silently
praying youd hear my crys
begging youd help me
would read my signs of pain

but you didnt
at 2am i decided it was time
i didnt want to live
i didnt want to breathe

so i cried and cut myself
thinking of you
wanting you to hold me
wanting you to understand

now im daed and your the one in pain
now you know how i felt
only now do you understand