Like This With You

I feel so guilty, being like this with you
Because I couldn't guess how, it became so true
Every time I sat down it was running through
In my mind, alone the picture drew

Of me alone not with him; another
Not what I want and not what I rather
When looking I just don't see every other
And now I don't want this to bother

I want to be distant like the sun
Suffering like this isn't much fun
Away from this; if I can't run
Then help me please, hand me that gun

I don't want to be in between you see
Because it's about you, not about me
I want you to know and see the sea
It full of more then one opportunity

Want you to have the best time you had
I want you to know, understand and be glad
That I was right, I wasn't mad
What I'm doing is good, don't think it's bad

Things are just the way they should
If there's anything else then I'm sure I could
Don't take me wrong I definitely would
Do anything to have me understood

Because what I'm doing, is only for you
Because you mean more to me then any other could do
My love for you is like untouched dew
Natural and radiant all the way through.

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