Falling

You promised to always hold me tight, promised I would always be your life...told me no one else would ever come before me and now you stand in front of me saying you're sorry...You never meant for this to happen, you love me still, but love isn't going to keep you here...

I look down to cover the tears, I can't let them fall while you're still here...you touch my hand and there they go, everything is lost because of one stupid touch! You lift my head and wipe away my tears apologize one more time and then walk away...

My heart slowly follows and begins to fall apart as you get farther away, until it's nothing but dust...I close my eyes and try to pretend this isn't happening to me, but my eyes open to my reality and you're still gone...my life forever shattered...nothing left for me to do or say...

I look to the sky and ask god why? Why does my life have to be full of all this pain? What did I do to deserve to live this way? I can't take this anymore, the only thing I have ever loved has walked away...I will no longer sit here and watch my life fly by...As I take out the knife and slit each wrist, I ask god one more thing...is this how I was suppose to end...falling down in an abyss of darkness and pain?