Ahh, delusions, illusions and reality.How well I
can relate.We all delude ourselves in some way at some point.And delusions are comforting, but we must realize them for what they are.You have expressed this sentiment so well, so honestly, moreso than most would.Realizing the delusion is at least a glimpse of reality.But the truth, though harsh and painful is better than delusions, and I feel you realize that at heart.But there is always hope, there is always change in life, and I hope it turns in your favor.Still, a beautiful, honest poem you have written, full of wisdom and a belief not yet realized, but on the brink.Have hope and faith that things will change.Life is continual change.Sometimes good, sometimes not, but in the end it all works out.

GaryJ