Too late...

My eyes were painful
from nights of silent tears
t'was unbearable

no matter how i keep myself busy
just so i could stop
thinking about you
even for a moment ,
still, thoughts of you
keep creeping into my head
persistent, unforgiving

we were young then
and vulnerable
we were full of hopes and promises
of an undying love
we planned our future together
and swore we'd never let go

yet we failed the test of time
and the love we used to believe in
and held so dearly
had become the source of our miseries and destruction

you gave me up
when i was so willing to fight for you
you left without even saying goodbye
you let me go
yet i kept on holding on

i waited...
i waited for days, months, years...
yet you did not come back
as what you've promised
it was almost unbearable

did you know
i was crashed when you left?
did you know
how much i missed you?
did you know
how many sleepless nights i spent
crying while i long for you?
did you know
i almost died the day
i learned that you were gone?

still, i waited
until i realized
it was just an endless wait
years of waiting
made my hopes of you coming back
slowly fade away
my heart went numb
my longing gone...

one day,
you came back
unexpected, unwanted

you try to save
what has long been lost in oblivion

i used to look into your eyes
you knew then that
it was full of love and longing
now, when i look into your eyes
you'd know
there was nothing
not love,
not hatred
not even sadness,

nothing...