This nightmare

I tried to live with my regrets.
but i don't think that i have lived yet,
i tried, i failed, I'll give no more,
tell me what is this life for?

i want so much to taste relief,
but all i know is the bitter taste of grief,
it lingers still within my mouth,
is there no easy way out?

pinch me now i must be dreaming.
heart is aching, soul is fleeting.
can i succeed? can i get through this?
let me out i don't think i can do this.

I'm fading fast yet holding on.
trying to breathe though breath is gone.
i cling to shallow hopes dreams.
some stable ground is what i need.

this darkness seeps into my skin
and destroys me from within.
i scream, i cry, i bleed, i shake.
i think I've had all i can take.

pinch me now i must be dreaming.
body aching, confidence fleeting.
when will it be over? does it ever end?
for ourselves we are to fend.

I'm sinking in my own remorse
hoping for an alternate course.
but none exists, it can't be found.
the dying are dead the drowning have drowned.

is this the end of what we knew
as the one thing we could cling to?
we've been abandoned by our hope.
there's no way we can learn to cope.

pinch me now i must be dreaming.
heart is dying, soul is screaming.
I've lost the ability to feel.
this nightmare is all too real.