Now you may think its strange
that i once refused to smile
that i once was in denial
that i once thought it was my fault
it was three years ago now
that i fell into a hole
someone i trusted
betrayed my loyalty
he abused my right for choice
he abused my right for caring
he took away my innocence
he took away my life
after he had done his deed
is when i started falling
smoking and drugs, alcohol and violence
is what my world turned into
no respect for myself
felt i deserved the pain
crying myself to sleep at night
this was not a game
i used to cut myself to sleep
i used to make the pain feel real
i hated who i was
and i blamed myself for what he did
there was nothing left for me
i was a troubled child
traumatized and weak
is what my friends would say to me
i left school because of this incident
my friends at school were no help at all
teasing me because of it
is that what friends should do?
i left school, i gave up on life
i gave up on myself
i gave up for good
until i met my friends today
they all know what happened
they all stand by me
they listen to my fears
and they wipe away my tears
what i once thought was over
has only just begun
i realize life is worth living
and maybe one day my scars will heal
my mum and dad were a blessing
through such an awful time
not once did they doubt my troubles
they tried to help me out
i couldn't see that than
it was like i refused to know
that someone actually cared
but my eyes have opened up
my friends today are the reason I'm still here
they are the reason for my life
they are the angels that god sent me
they are the ones who opened my eyes
so even though i quit school
and even though i smoke
even though I've still got scars
Shaun, your the one i feel sorry for
Shaun Adams is his name
one i will never ever forget
and it took me a while to realize
that none of this was my fault
just a word to you Shaun
you made me who i am today
even though i used to cut
my strength within has grown
there is a tunnel
and as dark as it might seem
just keep walking straight
and you aswel will see the light
the light that I have seen
