Just thinking

Sitting outside watching the cars pass by,
head in my hands wondering why,
Thinking about how things are never what they seem,
and that sometimes reality is just a dream,
Why I can't awake is very unknown,
as feelings are hidden and never shown,
and thoughts of the future are suddenly fading away,
as the person I love, other plans got in the way,
calls got limited, now summed to none,
now our times together have lost its fun,
no more dreams of our future life,
as I and my heart fears we'll lose the fight,
I just hope we get stronger in the things that we're lacking,
until then I'll be sitting on the porch just thinking.