Messed up

Torn in two broken apart
i need to go from the start
my life screwed up messed up my head
if only you knew i am already dead
love has grown trust been broke
this is so real its not a joke
torn between feeling do i feel or not?
so confused my heart has been shot
the sound of blood is feeling calm
i start to cut from my palm
i make a cross to mean a kiss
my kiss goodbye the world shall not miss