You Don't Really Care

As darkness falls,
I slip into the deepest darkness depths of my mind,
where my horrible thoughts are made,
where I am alone.
Where no one can stop the blood from flowing,
or the tears from falling.
And as I look to the sky I see you,
blockin the only small rays of light that I could ever get in my deep hole dispair.
I scream at the top of my lungs just so you can hear me,
and you do.
But you dont care,
no one does.
The more I yell the louder I get.
I yell until I turn blue in the face, but you dont care,
you just look at me with a blank star.
I make attempts to get out of my hole of despair.
But everytime I get half way up,
you come by and knock me back down.
You seem to always know when am making progress,
you always make my progress a slow process.
You say you love me but insist on making me cry.
I second quess myself,
make myself cry.
You make me think I could never be good enough but I\'m learning thats a lie.
You look me up and down like you want something from me,
making me think you need something,
maybe you want me.
You make me feel better while tearing me down,
you tell me to smile but all i hear is \"FROWN!!!!\",
I reach out,
but no one is there.
I told you I needed you,
but you dont really care...