Self-Control

Self-Control

So I'm sitting here thinking,
what should I do?
I've been through this before,
It's all mainly about self-control.
Confusion and questions run
through my head,
Curiosity and wondering start to
begin.
I hate the fact that I could've stopped it.
That I could've controlled my lips and locked them.
But seduction and desire are much too strong,
and oh my goodness, it had been so long.
It all seemed so perfect, it all seemed so right.
It was windy, it was rainy, it was a perfect stormy night.
I don't want to get hurt again, and it's plain to see.
I don't have a good feeling about it, cause it's not meant to be.
He's a playa, and to him I'm just another girl.
But I always have the hope that he'll realize, that there could be more.
I can't make him my everything, because when he's gone, I won't have anything.
Now it seems so hard to resist.
It's like a drug, an addiction, I can't see through the mist.
I think of that moment, and I go back in time.
Slowly wishing he was mine.
I know it's impossible, I know it can't be true.
For the simple fact that I'am pure.
If I was like every other girl,
I'd have him right now.
It sucks so badly how it always seems,
Like your heart chooses the impossible dreams.
But that's the price we pay for respecting ourselves.
And it's worth it, the pain that we bare.
Its ok, these feelings will soon go away,
It's not like he's here to stay.
I'll just keep telling myself,
to look the other way.
Eventually he'll disappear,
Just like every last tear.
And besides,
I've been through this before,
It's all mainly about self-control.

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