Depression thoughts

Last night i cried
i sat in bed alone
stared through the darkness
and let the tears flow

as the night dragged on
the memories seeped through
the mask Ive been wearing
was pulled down

the real me was revealed
the depressed me
the one who hates herself
cries and doesn\'t even know why

i walk around numb
not quite happy
and not sad
just numb and afraid

i want to leap free
allow my spirit to escape
my mind to stop thinking
and live for a day

but when ever i do
i always fall so far
hate engulfs me more
and i just cant deal with it

wish i was someone else
then the tears would stop
id be happy to wake up
life would be worth living