My Loneliest Day

This day seems neverending
I wish it would just end
Im not sure how I made it this far
or why I even let it begin
I wish the voices in my head would just leave
but they always seem to find their way in

They taunt me over & over
I cant get them to stop
they constantly remind me of my pain
almost to the point where I go insane
they bring out all of the emotions
I desperately try to hide
but it gets to a point
where I just breakdown & cry

I ask myself over & over
"Why dont you just end it?"
& all of the hatred towards myself comes out
I think of myself as a letdown, a nothing, a nobody
not nearly the something Id like to be
cause theres nothing I like about me
& as the tears start to flow & the disappointments rise
I cant control myself as I skake & cry

While the sun rises its the sign of a new day
& somehow my feeling of loneliness begins to fade
& the feeling of relief takes its place
even though I cant wash these painful feelings away
Im somehow relieved
knowing I survived, my loneliest day.