Will I Live To See Tomarrow?

I found out i have something
and I've had it since birth
a disease that makes you wonder
how long you'll be on this Earth

it's a really scary feeling
not knowing how long you'll live
to not know if you'll wake up
so you try to give and forgive

so you try to be perfect
and be everyone's friend
you try to live live to the fullest
cuz you never know when yours'll end

you try to hide it from people
cuz you don't know what they'll say
to know that anytime now
it could be your last day

the pain is not what worries me
it's what I'll never get to do
but at least i have my friends
who stay close and who stay true

I'm scared i wont get to see the world
before i leave it behind
but know I'm always with you
not in body but in mind

please don't treat me differently
its still the same old me
its still the same old psycho
who takes orders from a tree

its still the same old weirdo
who does every dare she gets
and puts up with everything
even getting hit

don't be nice to me know
if you were mean to me before
i know you don't really mean it
cuz you used to call me a wh**e

my ex is being nice to me
now that he found
is it real? is it fake?
my mind is full of doubt

if only i knew all his feelings
and the thoughts inside of his mind
it would avoid all the confusion
of why hes being kind

love your enemies
and stay close to your friends
never forget me
cuz ill love you til the end