By My Side

I wrote this and it was published in a book. =] /Voices Amidst Chaos/((http://www.lulu.com/content/321755))
*its free to download. =]*

its about a VERY confusing relationship, where you hate someone sooooo much, yet you still love them, no matter what they do to you, or how much pain they put you through, you still need them...
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I want to be,
next to you.
I miss you when,
you're far away.
being with you,
makes my day.

I need you to be near,
when you're here,
I have no fear.
but when you leave,
when you're gone,
I'm forgotten.
abandoned.
left out,
in the cold.

I cry,
I die,
Inside,
it kills me.
I can't survive,
without you.
I can't deny,
I need you..

I need you to,
be by my side,
for me to hide,
sheltered behind.
this burning desire,
like gasoline,
on fire
ecstasy-
only higher,
but then I learn...
you're a liar

a cheat
a sneak
a crook
like, a coded book..

a story consisting,
of torn pages.
and forgotten,
lies.
i forgot to read,
between the
broken lines.

now I see,
how you're a fake.
it's like finally,
I've begun to wake.
from a clouded dream,
an incubus
of screams.
a nightmare,
of lies,
atleast,
that's what it seems.

now everything,
is back,
to the way
it used to be.
nothing is right,
there is no more light,
the world is
covered,
smoldered in night.
the eyes of the people,
are shadowed,
in fright.

I can't look you
in the eyes.
can't face,
your demonic lies.
I can never,
bear the sight.
because of you,
I will never
be alright.
your lies show the fact,
that you never feel contrite.
this spark of hatred
is what,
you ignite.

your lies,
they kill me,
burn me inside.
make me feel,
a desperate
need to hide.
can't you tell?
that it's you
I despise?

please leave me.
just forget me.
I desperately need,
for you to regret me.

just find,
someone else.
to torment.
to torture.
to curse.

and to make their lives
miserably worse

please find,
another girl,
to kill,
with your lies.
because no more tears,
will fall
from these eyes.
these cheeks,
shall be dry.
I will never again cry...

But I want,
you to know,
that I still
need you...
by my side.

(Copyright)-that means don't steal it!