I Wish I Didn't Know

Sometimes i wonder if i can trust you, sometimes i think why
i every became friends with you.

After all these backstabbing
fateful years, you seem to just
want to drown me in all these
shredded tears.

We learn to for give and i will,
but i won't be friends, with some
one who always puts me in guilt.

We've been through good and bad,
but when you get a man, you act
like they're all you have.

You may not think it hurts me,
to know what you've been doing
behind my back, and you act
like i don't see.

You told to me to keep my head
up high, and never give up,
but now I'm starting to think,
thats just lines you made up.

I hate to hear from other
people what you have been
saying, but i hate telling
myself without her you'll fade.

It's not true, i can do and care
for someone better then you.

You may not think it hurts, but
its does, to hear all these
"sweet" things you say, but
only just because.

You think I'm just a person,
they go through life, they
live and then they die.

I'm not just a person, i do
go through life, but the thing
that held me back, was this
dark shadow that got rid of the
light.

That shadow was you, you don't
have any life, your just
something that stops some one,
from striving for what they
wanted day and night.

You broke my dreams, made me
think that you are the answer
to my prayer, when all you are,
is just a nightmare.

You're the reason I'm so dark in
my life, you're the reason, i slit
while i cry.

After so many years of cries and
lies, you always threated to
kill your life.

I told you Suicide is not the
answer, but you just don't
listen, your always running in
the kitchen.

I'm not going to tell you anymore,
when the knife completely
gets you, then you'll know
every thing i said was true.

I tried day and night to help you,
but you're so stubborn, i can't
take all this stuff you do.

I'm tired of hearing you cry,
I'm tired of you saying
you love some one when you
don't, and you lie.

I don't want to hear you tell me
that you care, i don't want you
to tell me and call me a
slut behind my back, when I'm
standing right there.

Just being with you makes me
so dark, I can write and say
all that i can and let out my heart.

When I'm so frustrated,
its mainly because of you,
you make every thing so
complicated.

I can't let you in my life
anymore, i can't have you
leave me on the floor.

Go to someone else when you
cry, go and tell someone else
a stupid lie!

I'm not going to hear you,
I'm sorry, but i need a
friend, one that is pure and
true.

Someone I can trust, some one
who won't treat me like a piece of
dust.

Someone who won't leave my
heart in the cold, someone
who will guide me right,
unlike someone i wish i didn't
know.....

*please tell me what you think