Lay here in bed
I'm staring at the ceiling, blank
For the pain that I'm feeling
I don't know who to thank
You were everything to me
And you still are
You were my one and only lover
Who now lives so far
We weren't aloud to be together
You being twenty one, I thirteen
Society wouldn't accept us, nor our families
I never knew life could be so mean
Our friends didn't like our relationship
Only a few stood by us
We tried to stay strong together
Even when everyone watched in disgust
You didn't see me as a teenager
Thought I was at least eighteen
My fault for being "too mature"
If only you could've seen
Maybe if you'd realized how old I was sooner
These feelings wouldn't have developed.
Then our lives would be the same
And go the way we'd originally hoped.
But I really don't see what's wrong
If two people love each other, what's age?
Just because we're eight years apart
Does that mean have to feel pain at every stage?
Our lives have been turned into books
Like we're just a thousand pages of lies, fake
People want to believe we're just a joke
I don't know how much more of this I can take
We wanted to run away together
But the question was where to go
It seemed like no matter where we went
There was always a foe
Then our families took drastic measures
They locked me up in my room
Wouldn't allow us to see each other
We'd never become bride and groom.
Then while I was shut away
Then forced you to France
You were to live with your aunt and uncle
To speak to each other, we were never given a chance
It's been four years since I've seen you
Less even heard your voice
I wonder how you're doing now
I wish we could've been given a choice.
You should be twenty five now
And I'm almost an adult
Just one more year, and we can be together
We can put our love on default
I wish I knew exactly where you are
I want to be able to see you again
Why can't we be together?
I want everything to be like back then.
Just take out the age difference
And all the looks of disgust
Take away all the shame
And eliminate it all down to just us
But hey, just one more year
And it'll be legal to be together
Maybe fate will give us a twist of luck
That'll leave us together forever
I just want to hold you again
And feel your arms around me once more
Want to listen to you talk random things
And kiss me like you did before.
But then again,
Four years HAVE gone by
Maybe you're married now?
And it's time to say good bye?
Yet, I don't want to
And I most definitely won't
I'll do everything to get you back
So no on can tell me, "No don't."
A girl would do anything for love
And trust me, I will
I promise you, love,
That this is one wish I will fulfill.
I don't know where you are anymore
Or how your heart may feel
Do you miss me too?
Or do you think our love was unreal?
Do you still love me?
I probably will never know.
But what I need to tell you
Is that I'll never let this love go.
[c] 2O06 Mindy Huang
