Suddenly Sleeping (Forever)

The whole time our relationship was a lie.
No I'm sorry or goodbye.
No forgiveness or friendship.
I hate feeling like this.
I cried in a corner for...
what seemed to be days.
Crying so hard that I started
bleeding, praying the distress would go away.
Now it's engraved in my core.
Leaving behind nightmares
causing me to love no more.
Not only did I lose my best friend,
but I lost a piece of me.
Shadowed by hatred,
I drift into dark depression.
I feel so hollow, I promised
I wouldn't be killed by this affliction.
I sat and read notes
that we wrote to each other.
I remember those same words,
"Remember I will always love you."
I do but I wish I could forget.
I can't control my eagerness to die.
It wouldn't hurt.
I would finally be okay.
As I wait until midnight
to take part in my own sacrifice.
I sharpen my blades
I count my once dreams
that are now my sins.
I get in the shower
while my tears begin to pour.
I take my razor...
I begin to slice.
The only thing on my mind
is the thought of me being all right.
Slowly my crimson blood
seeps through the slits in my skin.
I feel so composed within.
as I cut my last vein,
the nightmares I once had
are being erased.
I feel my knees begin to weaken,
and I fall into my grave.
And as I see the light ahead of me,
I realize I am suddenly sleeping... forever.