The devils angel

I was sat upon this earth to deliver evil,
but in time the evil consumed me,
i became what i most feared to be,
dont be fooled theres in angle inside waiting to be sat free,
but Alas theres a devil that can control my thoughts,
make me wanna kill but at the same time be free,
free from this misery that i call me,
is this my decided destiny
I'm torn between these two worlds that we know as heaven in hell,
to kill is to be denied love,
my soul is not for sell,
is god the one keeping me from then pearly gates
maybe god sees the devil in me trying to escape!!