Happy depression

Young free and powerful, a life of complications and mixed emotions...........

a girl so sweet so pure but feels so selfish when she wants more,
sometimes depressed with the things that shes got,
she feels she doesn't deserve any of this lot,
confused and bewildered is this young little girl,
depression through happiness in a politically overrun world,
why should she be happy? when there are people out there dieing,
staved deprived no family and crying,
she doesn't want to be here she wants to get out there and help,
but depression of the matter over power her inner self,
she feeds the homeless, and helps the lady with her bags,
but she feels selfish that its her not wearing rags,
a girl of mixed emotions and a heart full of gold,
wants to do more for people, wants to have control,
she has power and wants world peace,
shes adamant shes selfish and horrid because these are her beliefs,
so when she feels happy she punishes herself,
how dare she not care for nobody but herself,
if other people are not happy then why should she?
this emotion of helplessness makes her physically unhappy

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