What brings me down the most

How is it that you hold your head up high?How can you say every thing is alright?when I cry out for someone to save my but all i hear is the seams of myself going crazy.I'm scared of the reflection of myself in the mirror and when i can't sleep and all i think of is the end.I am living in a nightmare and there is no one to wake me up no savior for me.There is one way to end this pull the trigger end this nightmare to wake up form this.The voices say to it but i don't no I'm pretty scared of it but that will end this crazy nightmare now all i have left to ponder is should i do it?