Without Me

I've just realized
How Horrible I've been.
A bad friend,
Stupid actions speak louder
Than my words will ever.
What have I've done?
Confused by how I feel!
Don't want To see you hurt by me.
With me not being here help?
What have I done to us?
Gave you my bad habits;
When you should be happy!
Life full of joy!
Yet all I've given you,
Is sadness,
Bloody wrist,
And nightmares.
Wonder why you love me (How could anyone?)
Have to believe you'd be a
Better person, and
Happier without the pain cause by me.