~This is a poem I started a long time ago but just recently finished.~
Why don't you love me
I always wanted to know why
If you wanted to see me, I'd go
Believe me, I'm not shy
My pictures are so old
And you don't even know me
You were suppose to be my father
But I guess that's not who you wanted to be
I know by now
You have moved on
From the time I was little
You were permanently gone
I'm not sure why you left
Maybe for me love you didn't own
All I know is that for the past sixteen years
None of it was shown
I was sent birthday card
But they weren't from you
Some said they were
But I knew that wasn't true
My birthdays came and went
And still you weren't there
Never to share a cry, a laugh
Never even there to care
I knew my friend's fathers
Better than I'd ever know my own dad
Just knowing that fact
Made me life a lot more sad
There's just too much time cannot erase
And you were there not a single day
You lived your life, and I lived mine
We would forever be going a different way
I kept thinking if I was good enough
One day you would appear
But days of hoping
Soon turned into years
But soon the hope left
And it was like you didn't exist
Completely cut off
I was obviously one you didn't miss
A father not there
That's all you'd ever be
Just so you know
You were never a father to me
If I ever saw you
I wouldn't know
I wouldn't run up and hug you
No emotion I would show
You'd just be some guy
That would pass me on the street
Always walking by
But we would never actually meet...
