Has it really been 5 years?

Has it really been 5 years?
Since the day we said goodbye?
Remembering you is the easy part,
Letting go of the pain I still try.

I try to let go of the pain I feel,
every time I say your name.
I try to hold on to my memories,
But damn it memories just aren't the same.

No matter how hard i try, the ache is still there,
Every morning when i awake.
The anger, despair, loneliness, and grief,
I guess i just need more time to take.

Everyday i wake without you, is like a knife in my heart.
Why did you have to go?
I need you my son, I feel so alone.
Why is the process of healing so slow?