Its just how I feel

Thoughts overtake,
I lie here awake.
Alone and bored,
Felling ignored.

Now helpless,
Not needed.
I must confess,
I have been conceded.

Only thoughts about me,
Sorry, but it had to be.
Dont know how to get better,
And so I write this letter.

Im screaming for help,
But its only an echo.
The dog yelps,
And only I hear myself.

The sound is silent,
The tone is violent.
Screaming,
Wishing I were dreaming.

Its a nightmare,
And I dont know how to escape.
Im throwing up a flare,
But all they do is stare.

I dont mean to be a bore,
I dont mean to be a chore.
Im sorry its like this,
I didnt mean to exist.

Just give me one more chance,
And Ill become the past.
Just one more glance,
And itll be my last.

Dont look at me,
When you really look through.
I know who you are,
I know what you do.

You hurt people,
You tell them lies.
And for that,
It is you I despise.

You make my life hell,
I dont know why I dwell.
I hope you all die,
For you make me cry.

Life aint supposed to be like this,
Its supposed to be bliss.
Youre supposed to be loved, not hated;
But hey, this is what I was fated.

You can tell me it aint true,
You can tell me you love me;
But I mean NOTHING to you.

Maybe it aint true,
Maybe its in my head.
But either way,
Id rather be dead.

It may be just feelings,
But this is how I feel.
Now I just wish I knew,
How to help myself heal.

You cant help,
So dont even try.
It may not be real,
But its just how I feel.