Which path

Which path should i take?
Attempted happiness or a mistake?
I have way too much anger built up inside
That I'm ready to break but i decide to run & hide...

Do i even deserve a little bit of happiness?
My life hurts and is such a mess...
Did i screw it up myself or not...
Should i fix it with everything that i got?

People come into my life and leave so quick
I'm so stressed that it will make me sick!
They leave before they even say "Hello..."
And then it's so hard for me to let go

My heart is resembled as a brick wall
The more tough the girl, the harder she'll fall
It's sometimes impossible to get in
But when you're there, ha where should i begin?

I mean it when i say that I Care
I want you in my life, i want you there!
But then i just get a back-slap right in the face
And left alone in this hell of a place...

I get offered a lasting, good deal
I can do stuff to basically help me... feel
Should i turn around and get back on the drugs?
It'll cover the pain of stress and lack of hugs...

I can turn my life back around right now
I can stop breathing and take my final bow
But do i want to risk it all?
If i don't, i might take a fall...

My only light is my friends that i have
I'm losing family, my gram and my dad
Sometimes it feels like i have nothing...
Some days it feels that i have a little bit of something

But anymore, i just feel so empty inside
Fix it? well believe me, i tried
I guess maybe it's just my sign to leave
And if i keep listening, i just might believe...