Thoughts from sitting in the dark

Its funny to think
that is has been a year
and yet nothing has changed
I still get sad
I still wish you were here
Im still trying to replace you
but most of all
I still cant forget you

some times you make me think weather it was really worth it
was it really worth falling in love with you
if I meant to learn a lesson
I have yet to learn nothing
except how much pain a person can with stand before going crazy
I have broken that point many nights
but what I cant understand is why is it
that you get to be happy while Im not!!
What makes you so worthy of love
you made your mistakes
I shed many tears from your actions
and yet Im the one who cant let go
Im the one who cant move on

I refuse to believe that those nights of passion mean nothing today
its torture to think that all those words that you said to me
the same ones that still ring in my ear
are being said to a less worthy other
it brings tears to my eyes to see you two together
but its worst when I see your eyes connect with mine
and as quick as they connected you tear them away
leaving me in a painful stare
abandoning my thoughts in a state of complete dismay
creating a hate inside that has never been conjured
changing my heart in to a cold rock
unable to be melted
even by the sweetest and most kind of souls