Confused about my actions

Here I am; a teenage girl
Wanting so badly to change the world
Here I am; a lonely heart
Waiting for a true romance to start

I made a promise to God last night
That for 12 months, day and night
I wouldn’t get into a relationship
I wouldn’t let a kiss approach my lips

For a whole year I say here I am
I am not running, I will not scram
Use me Oh God, for this year I am yours
I’ve put aside the boys, I’ve closed those doors

Why is it I am confused, about the decision I made?
It’s an action that not many teens display
But here I have been waiting for a love so strong
And I made a decision that lasts for so long

I throw my hands up and still surrender to you
I know that you’ll use me and help me to pull through
I’m proud of my decision but need to be reminded
That if I guy comes along I shall not let myself be blinded

I made a promise that I truly want to keep
I don’t want to show that I’m fake or I’m cheap
Allow me to be a good leader, a Godly demonstration
Allow me to be strong oh God and not give into temptation

*I made a decision through church and signed up for a "not to get into a relationship for this whole year"...so August-August and just be Gods for this whole year and try and do things for him..like mission trips and things in our community...of course right after I made the decision I got asked on a date and I'm not sure if I regret my decision or not :-\...I just don't want to be like all the other teens which is why I made the decision I did*