What I can't have

Always wanting what I just can't get,
perhaps in the future, but just not yet.
I want you and I need you, but no, it's just to late,
Because I just said no that one time, I gave up on my faith.
I thought we'd be better as friends, how wrong could I be?
Why didn't I realize, how much you cared for me?
Every time I think of you, my heart skips a beat,
Your just the sweetest guy, the best I'll ever meet.
I said I didn't know you well, but what else is time for?
I wish I could go back, to how it was before.
I should have known it then, yet I blew my feelings away,
and just because I was afraid of what other people would say.
Now I regret, and I can't change a thing, and it sucks it really does,
Should I use the word are, or the word was?
Is there a future, do you believe, or really, what do I?
If I can't have you now, not ever, I think that I might die.