Just Tired

Tired just sitting here,
Need to loose it all again,
To feel alive within somehow,
But cuts don't bleed now,
They've run dry so soon,
Tired of not wanting to be home,
Hugs don't mean anything,
A simple act in a play so cruel,
Words fall flat to the floor,
Broken promises and crushed dreams,
Tired of being a plastic person,
Dolls can keep their world,
Wrapped up with everything perfect,
But nothings ever perfect,
At least in this nightmare,
Tired of breathing a lie,
Being the one smudge on your life,
That never goes away,
Always the mistake and never the promise,
A promise of something to come,
Just tired from the inside,
Lay me to rest while you can,
Can't hold on much longer,
Everything weighs down my soul,
Just tired,
Can't think,
Just tired,
Can't breathe,
Just tired,
Can't see,
Just sleep.