Someone Else's Life

I can't believe the life I'm living,
I'm so sure it's not real.
This has to be a fictius pain,
This isn't how other people must feel.

It must all be so fake,
As fake as the smiles I give you,
As fake as the emotions directed toward me,
All of this you already knew.

None of these tears could be here,
Really falling from my eyes,
None of this everlasting hurt is truly here,
Why am I the one who cries?

I swear you're all just winging it,
Acting my life out,
Planning how I will commit suicide,
How my thoughts are so heavy with doubt.

I can't believe this is MY life,
It has to be anyone's but mine,
Because someone else must be the one,
That has to pretends she's fine.

Someone else must be keeping secrets,
That her ex-boyfriend came back,
Hit her and made her bleed,
But certainly not ME who is about to crack.

This isn't real at all,
Must be someone else's nightmare,
Because I want to live a 'normal' life,
Tell me this is mine, to you all I dare.